I haven’t really been updating this blog lately and my ANALytics have been a great representation of that, but without further ado… the contest at hand

Win an MSI Wind 3G netbook! Follow @abeolandres & @talk2globe. Join the YugaTech Giveaway: http://bit.ly/cWBn3M #thanks2globe

my main partcipation in this contest will be geared more towards my Project 365 on flickr located here …

so you’ll end up seeing my mug just like the picture below, but hopefully in more craziness!

Well cheers to winning that “Winner Winner Chicken Dinner”

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anyways, as usual i got so much on my mind and not enough words to explain it.

later 4 later.

I mean nowadays we all know someone that could listen to a little NWA and then take a leap over to Modest Mouse and then chill with some Incubus (the aforementioned have been chosen as a strict dichotomy of musical taste systems, but not necessarily a basis for judgment of the writer*), then if the need arised… bust out some Maxwell to get the baby making on or if she a SUPER FREAK then you can straight pull out the throwback to you know you who…

But what I’m trying to say is, I personally don’t know anyone in this world that simply listens to one particular genre, I mean do you know anyone that can say I only listen to “this Music” (and by “this Music” … I am somewhat implying that they pretty much forsake all other types).

I just felt the need to expound upon thoughts that were trapped in my brain trying to escape through the overflow valve which is known as my attempts at randumb creative processical prose prowess (eat me).

Well I do believe that concludes our current installment… tune in… O Fuck it… Bye.

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The majority of what is about to be said, is still applicable to this day… but there are things that a few years of mental growth have cured.

The reason why I am posting this is because I needed to find something that would help cure might writers block and this definitely opened a back window into me writing again (even though it maybe in a repetitive manor).

Well I hope the 10-15mins that you spend reading this was worth because I ain’t giving you shit back.

Enjoy or not, I know I did.

Peace Out all you Weople & Trologgers.

Life Story: Rules of thumb

There are many Rules of Thumb in life.

Let us speak of the Rule of Thumb that involves those “dealings with/of the heart.”

Again I am writing some factual information about people who have decided to share their experiences with me and in much respect to them I’ve decided to keep their anonymity by not using any names from here on out, as compared to previous installments. So let’s continue to the story at hand.

As I’ve been my usual self and being the observant one that I am, I’ve noticed that a major Rule of Thumb when dealing with the heart is to “first don’t listen to your heart ….. right away that is.”

I met someone who would always lead with his heart (everyone might know him, because he is one and the same from the last story), and it would always get him into trouble. He was always able to analyze other people’s situations; but when it came to himself he never analyzed himself and the things he was doing. And this would lead him to always getting sucked into so much trouble.

But we will wait a just one second and go off on a slight tangent, since this is in essence a continuation of the last story. For this contains the girl’s version of the last story. So let us first move forward with that.

So the young man finally acted on which option he should take and he mixed and matched all of them
together as recommended by the readers.

Initially he decided to chose option #2:

“Force himself to not like this girl anymore. Then just try to be friends with her even though he likes her and has so many different feelings for her. Feelings that he didn’t even have for the first girl he was infatuated with.”

And he really has been working on forcing himself to not like this girl anymore and has been trying to be friends but it really didn’t work out.

Then he decided to move to option #4:

Actually talk to STRIKER¹ and let her know about all everything that has been going on during all of the recent events. Then tell her all the feelings he has had for her and see what happens, and hope it doesn’t affect their friendship or maybe, just maybe have that special opportunity to have a chance to spark something extremely special with STRIKER¹.

And oh did he move onto option #4, since he didn’t really dwell on option #2 for too long.

So he told her everything…

Basically putting everything on the line including himself, an occurrence that he frequents far too often when it comes to his life.

After the dust settled, and he felt free and clear to whatever outcome might happen…

She came back with her own onslaught and then laid it back on him.

He showed up on the radar as an extremely flirty friend, not even considered in the “what if” category. Even his friend who he thought caused all the drama ranked higher than he did.

She then went ahead to explain the whole story to him.

What was happening was that she was still in love with her EX and she just couldn’t let go of him. She explained to him that though he did cheat on her, her EX was still given the chance to be better and given the opportunity to treat her better… but he just didn’t.

No matter what she did or what her EX did… she still harbored feelings that just don’t go away overnight (or in his situation, just because she’s not with the EX anymore doesn’t mean if you confess that she’ll jump straight into your arms and then its happily ever after). To quote her on how much she still loved her EX, “I don’t know, I know he did me wrong… but it’s just that he was the first guy in a long time since my last boyfriend that I could give my whole self too.” (There is something to be said about reaching that heightened state of feelings for someone and still be stuck… that’s for a whole other story)

So she continued and went on explaining to him that she was still “sprung over her EX and that his timing was extremely bad” (personally, I think his timing shouldn’t of come at all if you understand that).

So after each of them had said their peace and everything was left on the table… she basically put the “final nail in the coffin”, “was the winter to their seasons”, or as I see it “the final book end to their saga” by telling him (in the nicest way possible; Sugar-Coating is for losers) that “you’re just not that kind of person to me…”

So he decided that he should then move onto option #1:

Just cut his losses and move on. And basically cut her off completely from his life, so that he has the ability to function and not get hurt. (Oops, just a little too late for the latter)

Well since moving onto this option, he has been able to cope with most of his life and get back to the things he was doing that made his life normal (well things that appeared normal to him, but not most).

He has told me that she hasn’t been cut off completely, he has just set things into motion in which he’s not making any efforts to associate with her (and even I know that cutting someone out of your life is simply an option of desperation and not always the best thing to do, but I do feel for the guy).

It’s just that I see and everyone else should see also, that they just need some time apart. You know the time that is needed to think about what has happened, what has been said, and then move on in any which way they decide from there. Because ever since the moment that their worlds collided (so to speak), nothing would or could have ever been the same.

So I hope clarity was achieved as to what happened and what maybe will happen in the future.

Unfortunately this is probably the last installment on what happens between those two because I’ve lost contact with the girl and I would hate to give an unbiased outcome (but like everyone can do, we can make conjecture and infer what will happen in their respective futures).

Now back to the story at hand…… what was being discussed again?

Oh yes Rules of Thumb.

We had basically just got done with “dealings with/of the heart”, now onto something else that touches a little closer to home… at least for myself.

It is somewhat unusual that something would be happening to me, but hey with life things happen and in the most randumb manors possible.

This rule of thumb is dealing with friendships.

Friendship, now that is a very strong word and a lot of people take it for granted.

I am one of those people who tends to take all his friendships for granted. To the point that I begin to lose them due to uncontrolled circumstances(or were they all controlled circumstances).

So how about I just get straight into the story. I have these really close friends (as in really close friends that out of most people understands the inner workings of my mind) and lately we’ve all grown apart
from each other and it has been really hard.

So here goes the situation, they’re in college and I decided not to go and now they’re in a fraternity and I am not. And this is where it really gets juicy, I find myself losing some of the closest people in my life, just because we’re growing apart and I know I can only burden them with my presence for so long.

The above doesn’t quite making sense but oh well. It’s just so hard for one to cope with all of the things going on life and not be able to have his “buds” to take off some of the pressure. Before the whole fraternity it was hard for us to be separated aside from our daily lives and the things we had to do, but now with work overflowing and them simply having their own things, it’s just that one can get lost in the mix and not know what they are doing.

And it is clearly understood that there is still a small child in me (well in all of us really)… small enough to realize that it is still really, really hard to know that were all growing up and moving on in our lives. It’s not like I’m losing them, but it just feels that way because we all just have our own thing. But what I’m really trying to say is that a good rule of thumb when it comes to friendships, is that you need to know that no matter they’ll still be there for you.

Now for a little more JR-Time (as if everything wasn’t just coming from him anyways), no Rules of Thumb here (well maybe you’re just going to have to find them for yourself). JR or myself or both, are finding ourselves (really just himself) on the brink of a crossroad at an edge of a decision to what might be going on.

I was accepted to the University of Washington and I’m pretty intent on not enrolling… instead a decision has been made to pack up everything I own (or everything that is mobile) and move down to California.

I know that I’m going to be leaving everything that I know… my friends, my work, and especially the groove of a life that I have created. This is truly going to be an experience of starting fresh in a new place (San Francisco) and what feels likes almost being at 0,0,0,0,0 (yes that’s right all the way to the 5^th dimension).

A part of me (at least 70%) is somewhat excited to get a fresh start. I mean the life I had made here in Washington is comfortable, but with the ease of comfort comes the decline in progress. I’m not trying to say that my friends and the things I have accomplished here is nothing. I guess it’s just that there is nothing left for me to do here.

I’ve only finally realized that I am actually an adult capable of making my own decisions without having to stress about what other people think. But I was never a person who really cared about what people said or thought about me, except for those moments of weakness when I left my defenses down for those dam girls. Oh well, enough of the hiding right? I thought so. The last story was a personal experience written in a biographical way, just for my own personal benefit.

In all honesty, I have stopped caring about what people may think about certain things I publish, because I find that it is a great opportunity for me to release things that I otherwise couldn’t ever say.

So this is the only forum, that can be truly unadulterated and almost completely unfiltered, to tell people the things that need to be heard (even if they fall on deaf ears).

And now a little chance to tell peoples some things:

Chris-
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Nick-
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Brian-
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To the new chicks

Ro-
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Steph-
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JUNE-
Wow some kind of story this turned out to be, honestly I don’t know what the hell to tell you JUNE. Here let me start out like this, you captured me in a way that no one has yet (and see you didn’t even have to try). I care about you so much and I honestly don’t want to but I can’t help myself, there is just
so much I look for in a girl and I find it in you. And yes I do know your heart lies* with another guy, but you seem to have a piece of mine (just a very tiny piece). I don’t think I can ever stop liking you JUNE, but as for right now I just think you need to sort out what you need to sort out and I need to do
the same. So what I’m really trying to say is that I’m not cutting you out of my life I’m taking a break from you so that I can figure out my life. And I know just like what happened before with me, we’ll be really good friends down the line but as for right now it’s just not the best opportunity for the
either of us. I’m sorry again for the bad timing (or for even telling you about how I felt), but as I do apologize I don’t regret it because like I said I’m not a person who lives with regret (because every experience whether good, bad, hurtful, helpful is always a learning experience). So June, I guess what I’m really getting at is that this is GOOD BYE for now. And I know I’m saying GOOD BYE for now, but JUNE you know that if you ever needed anything, that you could always turn to me. I will be there for you no matter what, shoot I’m not heartless (quite yet).

So peoples I’m guessing this concludes most of the story but not quite finished yet with this Epic Journey we are all on.

And just so we can put a little bit of closer to everything that has been written…

One more, good Rule of Thumb: Life is Too Short to Regret Anything & Especially to Not Say Anything.

So I guess that’s it for now, until next time Just Live Life as Life Lives You.

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This nagging urge to write something sweet, thoughtful, etc. to someone amazing and beautiful…

No matter what I did through my morning routine, of getting my shit together, getting myself together, et al. I couldn’t stop thinking about wanting to write this dam Love Letter.

I was almost to a breaking point in my morning routine and realized that i still hadn’t showered. So I postponed the madness for a few minutes and jumped in the shower… but it didn’t help, my mind was so focused on creating something that would put the words of the great romanticist to shame…

…….

…….

…….

Then something came up and then i felt that everything got washed down the drain.

This little piece of writing could have turned into something if not amazing, at least thoughtful and heart warming. But this was simply more of an exercise in futility. I mean don’t get it all twisted, the JR used to be able to throw down some heart felt goodness (actually we might dig up some old Chemistry Notebooks [since moleskins couldn't be kept on the low... and plus it was all about chemistry haha]).

But I hope you enjoyed, because I know I definitely did.

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Now that i think about it all started when the JR decided he wanted to host his own wordpress and everything turned from his writing (i.e. content) to getting down with the “get down” (get down- is web publishing). I mean since then he has definitely learned alot, I mean I spent many a hour with him, teaching him the proper way to steal people’s ideas and then pass them for his own. He has built such a stronger relationship with google and also a couple developers who have contributed (unknowingly) to the progression of what is http://randumb.me and its many iterations.

This post is coming off completely out of left field and we need to focus on what needs to be said. And what needs to be said is that if you want to follow the JR through his day to day web life, then your going to want to go and find him over @ tumblr (mo.randumb.me) | @ randumbme (twitter.com/randumbme)…. aside from that you can attempt to befriend him on facebook (since myspace is no longer really used) and see if he accepts your request (but he is very selective… unless you’re a hot chick, since you can always use another hot chick as a facebook friend [even superficial friends are still friends]).

Last (i didn’t know that the JR was keeping some kind of order to this post), but the JR and I have decided that the randumb.me domain is about to undergo a major over & under haul and i believe there will be an actual rebranding (logo and everything) for the entire site. So i guess you guys can just stay tuned to whats coming or you can keep better tabs of JR on the afforementioned places.

ps. here is a snap of my tumblr… i put about a total of 4hrs into… also still need a header, so if your in the mood then take a crack at it.

mo.randumb.me

Citizen Cope-SelfTitled-4-Let The Drummer Kick.mp3 (5025 KB)

Citizen Cope – Let the Drummer Kick

Got up this morning and started doing the do in the JR’s uber-relaxed superdaze. Hit up some email, some voicemail, no twitactions, no FB, but caught up the back-log (suprisingly alot of people straight addict on a saturday night)…

Finally grabbed the iPhizzy, hit the switch on the bluetooth (stereo earphones FTW), hit shuffle and…… Let the Drummer Kick just set it off for the Lazy Lacksidasical Sunday…

He feels the strength of the music coming through each individual bud and sparking each and every synapse fire within the recesses of his core.

Today is going to be non-trivial pursuit of something less amazing.

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Since I got into the office this morning, I haven’t been able to control myself from typing on a keyboard that is clearly not plugged in (my desktop is down and I’m on the lappy and didn’t feel like plugging in the ergo)…

but it’s clearly awesome since I’ll be typing something (as I am now) and then stop to do something else and then turn back to the typing again and then boom nothing is appearing on the screen since I am clearing typing on a keyboard that isn’t plugged in. this whole situation of happenstance has clearly shown to be an excellent batch of soliloquies…. wait or is it metaphors…. similes…. ambigram…. fuck I don’t even know.

I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in a good few weeks… as to what the causes could be – well they are to vast for me, the humble servant of the JR, to unload the megatroid on you poor suspecting trologgers. Let’s just say that it’s mostly self inflicted. Now the effects have been of standard nature when it comes to the JR’s overall disposition… which is that of his Laissez-faire Mentality.

Now the moral implications are that of morality and the JR clearly has no time for that.

And with an abrupt body jarring stop… he bids you weople good day.

HE SAID GOOD DAY DAMMIT.

Ps. Dam straight that was randumb… aHAH!

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The above was literally a summation of what we were talking about and yes it was randumb. But isnt that what you come to expect of the JR in this day and age.

Well enough of that and onto what is at hand…. My ________ (choose your word correctly) [Yes i am ambidextrous, but in a non-traditional way...i'm omnidextrous].

But here is the new thing that i have been trying to launch over the last few days since my mind is every which way but focused.

the JR is at a point in which he is in Social Mizix … So he thought he would set a single destination in which all of this comes to a fortuitous head. But in his efforts he failed graciously. The reason being is because of his ADD/ADHD and Insomnia playing tricks on his mind that he has created lifestreams of overlaptitude.

He is where he and me currently reside:

twitter.com/randumbme

www.randumb.me (This is where your going to find pieces that give a little more meat to your meal that serves you to your trologging)

facebook.com/randumbme

myspace.com/i_am_that_guy (no longer really active)

And a whole Jumbalaya of other socially that require some kind of social interaction but arent worth mentioning.

Now here is what Insomnia & ADD/ADHD have created for easy your viewing pleasure:

mo.randumb.me (Powered by Tumblr)

soup.randumb.me (Powered by Soup.io)

post.randumb.me (Powered by Posterous)

Well this has just been another randumb installment of the JR trying to workout some the randumb synapse fires going on in his brain and i was just simply the vessel to deliver to you folks.

the JR is done like all the fun neverland ranch (too soon?)

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Fil.Am

Blog Entry was Entitled: Well what’s left? and i decided to repost it on here, so here goes some randumb for you mind while the JR works trying to get one of his many pieces in order for re-order…

I sit here this morning and wonder whats left for the rest of the day (its 930am btw)… Its been one of those type of lifetimes that puts my existential acuity to the test. To be honest I really don’t know what is being written right now… i haven’t been able to write anything lately (actually let me correct that, i haven’t been able to finish any piece i have started)… But i keep writing since my mantra is “Keep Writing until there’s Writing worth Keeping”.

thanks and i’ll yall on the flipside.

Btw you can find the essay @ Vote 4 the JR and voting doesn’t close until July 12, 2009… So if you enjoyed Go Vote 4 it.

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Essay Topic: Explain in 400 words or less what they like most about their Filipino heritage and how they think it has impacted their life today.

And now onto the JR’s body of work (it’s a shorty):

When I look at this question on what I like most about my ‘Filipino Heritage’ and how it has impacted me today… it is really hard to quantify, since there are just so many things that I could list that I would end up just ranting on and on. But to keep things simple, I really like the fact that Filipinos are some of the most well-liked ‘Asian’ people everywhere.

Filipinos are definitely known for their generally positive demeanor. We are a very accommodating group of people. I mean you just take into account the house parties that our parents threw… Straight Pot-Luck of Good Eats, Games Galore, and don’t even get me started on that darn Magic Mic (laser disc back in the day).

I get a majority of what I know about my heritage from my mom (as most Filipinos do), she taught me about a lot of things that can be seen in a majority of Filipinos today. Things such as the ability to accommodate everyone, but not letting people walk all over you. I feel this really dates back to the days of the fore-fathers (not the typical 4-Padres that us fil-ams are used to) that were strong in their convictions and really shaped the Filipino Legacy that us in Generation Facebook/Twitter/etc. can look back upon and be really proud of.

To be honest the largest impact it has placed on me today is the way when I first meet people, I am able to build a very solid foundation with people (especially people of different ethnicities) right away. The reason being is because I have yet to meet someone that has had a terrible experience with a Filipino/a. Overall when you ask anyone outside of Filipinos (since we all have our own tribal instincts when it comes to our own kind so to speak), their opinion… the majority of them will say pretty good things, such as but not limited to:

-I love Filipino Food
-I love Filipinas (ya me TOO!!)
-Filipinos throw the best parties
-Man, all the Filipinos I know are so dam stylish

So to close this little essay out…

I really liked being liked and my heritage has really shaped that for ME and for future MEs.

Thanks.

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Well thanks for stopping by and having a read. And in the off chance that its still prior to July 12, 2009… then go stop by and vote for the essay. http://randumb.me/YO/voteJR