Well I have decided to take a break from my cheating and actually pay some attention to the journalling of my life, which this all started out as.
Lately it has been extremely hard to write about a topic on my own fruition. I just completely keep stumping myself. I mean yes I go troll around the internet and see what people are doing, talking, etc. about and then throw in my 2 cents (and by no means do i count writing about not being able to write a topic i can write about, that made absolutely no sense)…
Anyways continuing, as far as life updates go, there isn’t really anything worth updating. I still find myself stuck in terms of looking at life in the grand scheme of things. I have done a little bit of soul searching (or as it really is self-reveling through prime-time television) and realized that (about to get all 3rd person omniscient on your ass) you being in your mid 20s, means nothing if you look back and regret a lot of it when you hit your 30s. Just take a look at your life right now… JR your in your 25th year of life (you know the half way point to death or so most would presume) and yes you have committed a foible or 13, but should not be your defining characteristic of future pretenses. JR you don’t know what is going to happen and to be honest if you died tomorrow, that would be some shit ass luck and anything I have to say to you would be completely moot. But being an omniscient being, your forecast does not include death tomorrow.
Okay so maybe i don’t know what I am talking about and/or maybe I am just all knowing too muchikstan. One thing I do know, with everything that is going on right now now, is that i have way to much alone time with my thoughts and that is never a safe bet for anyone’s emotional stability.
Now to another topic… when was the last time you cried? I mean that real death screech cry that you only let out when your completely alone. For me its been along time since I have let something completely bubble out and overpower me. Yes there have been a couple of movies that have made the eyes water, but still not a tear shed (because you know, we gots to keep it straight thug life and shit HOMES!).
But here is a little something that all makes it easier to get that cry cry going.
YouTube – Dane Cook – On Crying
On another note, I am currently testing out this new SOCIAL Browser. It hasnt even been day one and I am not sure (well duh it hasnt even been a day) I mean it has alot of interesting features like facebook, myspace, youtube, flickr, etc integrated into it… but i still dont know if i am sold on it quite yet. So if you start seeing more post tagged at the bottom, then I guess you know i am enjoying its use.
Well anyways back to the daily grind and we’ll see about that prediction for tomorrow.
I’m out like a deaf kid in musical chairs.
hi,
great story really.