so i have tried to stay away, but i just cant seem to. i spent a few good weeks from blogging.
not for the fact that i didnt have anything to say, its because i just have to much to say and not very constructed methods of laying it out there.
also everytime i feel the urge to write something productive i end up getting engulfed into watching my beloved (yes have finally joined the serious community of DLers, and have my weekly line up of US programming) tv shows.
like its pretty disgusting how much TV i actually watch. check it out:
SUNDAY
- californication
- dexter
- entourage
- family guy
- the unit
- true blood
- brothers and sisters
MONDAY
- Chuck
- how i met your mother
- heroes
- my own worst enemy
- prison break
TUESDAY
- the borders
- metalist
- fringe house
- chocolate new
WEDNESDAY
- criminal minds
- dirty sexy money
- pushing daisies
- sons of anarchy
THURSDAY
FRIDAY
- crash
- life
- no heroics
- numbers
- sanctuary
then the ones that dont fall under a certain day:
- burn notice
- rush
- legend of the seeker
this is all aside from the weekly doses of anime, new release movies, and pretty much whatever else i can get my hands onto.
i think i spend about 6 hours a day infront of my TV @ home; in addition to the 5-10 hours i spend infront of my computer (these are just weekday computations)[weekends could literally be almost spent all day in bed]
wow when it get written out like that, it just get pretty astonishing.
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what else is there to talk about, without going to deep into my brain and stirring up my thoughts of me wanting to kill myself again… wait not again… but as if that could ever be a possibility of me taking my own life, i am just far to greedy to sink to that point. my being feels that i still have something to lose and my life hasn’t quite hit the chopping block. now when the day comes when there is nothing left to lose, i still wouldnt be able to take my own life for i that will be the day of true absolute freedom.
i can only imagine being able to make a decision without the consequence of losing whatever i might be deciding upon. that sounds zen.
i guess i can go on rambling but i’ll put a plug on it for this post.
thanks to whoever might read this and find it helpful or whatever.
