the JR ≥ SAGA∙∙∙∙LOG Life is RANDUMB and I'm Lost & Working on it...

I have been pretty crappy at doing this blog thing and what not.

I find myself internalizing a lot lately, and relating to everything I find myself reading. Surprisingly enough I find myself reading more than I ever did when everything was “required reading”.

I can probably go through blog after blog after blog, yet still barely update my own blog.

What i’m trying to do with this entry is talk about many going-ons in my life that I always seems to keep in. I know no ones reads this blog so its not to  going to affect me IRL (yes ireland). I want to start a new subject that is just a summation of what I am thinking at the moment.

So from here on out this is the category of ” Go_DumB Wednesdays”.

Lately i find that i am exhibiting the following:

Manic depressive – What does it mean?
Manic depressive refers to mood swings from overly “high” (manic) to overly “low” (depressed). Another name for manic-depressive illness is bipolar disorder. This refers to a person’s mood alternating between “poles” of mania (highs) and depression (lows). Bipolar disorder is a brain disorder that causes unusual changes in the person’s mood, energy, and ability to function. 

Its not that I have completely diagnosed myself (nor am I fit to do a self-diagnosis; yet fit enough to self-medicate HA!)

I just miss the creature comforts of previous homes (in reference to places lived, not in the literal meaning of the words; not really necessary to elaborate for myself), I miss my DD4L, I miss the freedom, and most of all I find myself missing her the most(her is also a more generalized her, because i far and removed from actually being in love).

But this post can’t turn into a rant about a girl from times past and now I must look into the future.

I got to thinking about things that I have started as being a hobby, but ended up shelving them for that of my own personal sanctuary (which is my room with my big TV and endless supply of DVDs). So lets get to talking about the hobbies that are in need of coming off the shelf and helping me fill the boredom of my life.

• Digital Photography
  • Canon Digital Rebel
  • • I always envied alot of friends of mine that were complete wizards when it came to pointing a camera in a direction and making it looking like sheer majesticness (haha.. that even put a smile on my face).
    • I mean I have all the fixens for this darn camera that most beginners would be saying “your a waste of your stuff” and I know this.
    • I’ve gone in spurts… I mean i have used this camera a fair bit but now its been bagged for the past few months and I really just look at it to make sure it still powers on and works.
  • Samsung L73
  • • Similar to that of the NV series, yet if you see the camera no one would envy me. It has been beat to complete shit and it still keeps on ticking.
    • It is my everyday point-and-shoot, but it has been relegated to taking pictures of things I post online to sell.
    • There are times when I say to myself dam I wish I took a picture of that and then its dawns on me in the car ride home, that hey dumby you had a camera on you and you wouldn’t be kicking yourself in the butt .
• Video Gaming
  •    XBOX 360
  • • At one point it was a very expensive DVD Player
  • • At one point it died
  • • • But thanks kindly to the niceness of this repairman, It lives again with new more powerful guts that help it stay cool and not so high tempered.
  • • No new games = No new playing
  • • • With some exceptions of the Guitar Hero NOOB that I am taking over
• Nintendo Wii
  • At first was played almost all the time, for 3-to-tired to play hours.
  • Since being out here it only seems to rear its head out when there are large groups of friends over.
  • SSX died, which was one of my favorite games
  • • Pressure cracks suck and now I realize games should stay in their home and not in luggage.
  • I pretty much have every basic accessory you’ll need for this system.
  • No New games = No New Playing
  • Also its not currently in my possession so that is completely out of my control
• Nintendo DS Lite
  • Played during my trip over from the states
  • Saw some decent playtime first couple months I was here
  • Now it sits in its special bag in the same carrying case of my Canon dSLR
  • Was playing with it for a little while to try and figure how to put VOIP on it
  • Also was playing on DLing more games, but go lazy and became lack luster for a little while.
• Car Stereo
  • I was really into I.C.E (otherwise known as In Car Entertainment)
  • I have a few thousand dollars worth of car electronics sitting in storage. Since I have yet to buy my own car since moving out here.
  • New Car = Renewed Sense of ICEing (nICE, HA)
  • • MotorcyclingISH
      • 1 Big Bike
        • Super 4 that sits and gets used occasionally
        • Plans for modifications on hold
      • 1 Scooter
        •   Currently gathering dust
        • Awaiting parts to turn in a track ready racing scooter

• • • • • Cant seem to find enough allocation in all meanings of the sense
• Gambling
• ·         Yes I know it is more of a vice
• ·         There should be no problem getting back into this hobby
• ·         But do I want it to take a stake in my life again
• ·         The need for that rush still haunts me to this day.

I know there are probably tons more things that I have gotten into and wish that I kept up with but I find myself just to lazy and content with how my life is playing out. One hobby that I picked back up and haven’t quite given up yet is that of “Hitting the Gym” but I just cant seem to drop my bad habits of not sticking to a diet, so I cant seem to lose that tonnage and nor am I gaining weight… so I guess that’s what you can call BALANCE.

OK, loss of typing momentum. thanks and by.